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Dear Recipient,
I am sorry for the unconventional way of talking to you, but I wasn't sure how else to contact you without his ears listening in and his eyes scanning our every move. You, more than anyone, should understand the need for secrecy.—
or: Kevin and Jean cannot handle the distance they are forced to keep in the Nest, so they come up with a way to talk freely by exchanging letters in secret.
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08 Jul 2026
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Ailleurs - French - "elsewhere"
It’s strange, he thinks, that there are other people with other lives and that all around him people are having experiences so different from his own. In the Nest everything is uniform. They sleep and train and sleep and train again. There is no room for anything else. But out here amid the light and sound and color, mysteries are allowed to proliferate and beauty is allowed to grow and take form. Jean is one of those mysteries, an unknowable dark and fathomless other and Kevin’s curiosity is burning him alive.
Or: Kevin and Riko are in the UK filming a travelogue to promote the inaugural Exy World Cup. Outside of the Nest things get complicated.
Meanwhile, Jean Moreau is putting a plan in motion.Series
- Part 2 of Hatford Moreau
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08 Jul 2026
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No one is supposed to know that Kevin Day is deaf. Kevin tells Jean anyway.
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07 Jul 2026
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anytime, always by kevjean for constelationprize
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
09 Jun 2024
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Kevin has always had the entire world’s eyes on him, but no one has ever looked at him quite like Jean. Kevin isn’t sure how he ever forgot or let that go. They’ve fallen in and out of each other's lives, but they’ve never fallen out of love.
Alternatively: Kevin feels lost and stuck in his 20s, and the one person he used to know everything about has changed.
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06 Jul 2026
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When Riko Moriyama dies, Kevin is forced to confront his past and all the secrets he has long buried—even from himself. As his former life in the Nest seems to resurface, Kevin tries to move forward in the only way he knows how, but years of pain and abuse drag him into a downward spiral. And as his past and present begin to intertwine, Kevin must decide what will become of his future.
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built to fall apart and fall back together by snnycarisi
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
20 Mar 2025
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Jean called, and Kevin answered on the first ring.
“You watched,” said Jean.
“Of course,” Kevin replied, a hint of tenderness in his voice, “I always watch.”
“No notes?”
“You should be proud of yourself. Remember this moment, this is the start of the rest of your life.”
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or, Jean and Kevin find their way back to each other.
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04 Jul 2026
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“Some things never change,” Jean says in an english that still sounds like french. “Always suffering in silence. Do you know what they called you when you left? Disloyal.” He doesn’t wait for an answer. “It is funny, how they do not know you like I do.”
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03 Jul 2026
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In the Light of Day by NikNak22 for fullyvisible
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
11 Nov 2023
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It’s been almost five years since Kevin graduated from PSU. Five years that he's played Exy professionally. Five years since he’s learned to live on his own. Five years after discovering he’s in love with his best friends, former USC Trojans Jeremy Knox and Jean Moreau.
Five years since he’s figured out, they will never love him back.
So, when Jeremy and Jean invite him to their house for Christmas this year, he knows this is it. It’s the finale. The last hurrah. The swan song. The final act. It’s time he lets them go, lets this foolish, one-sided love go, once and for all.
But he might find this is harder than he ever expected.
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- Part 3 of A Falling Star
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29 Jun 2026
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Aaron Minyard never was taken back by his mother. Instead he drifts through foster care, separated from his twin since they were two. Yet when someone reaches out, offering to take both of them, why would Aaron say no?
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24 Jun 2026
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cherry fruit pop by mintyelbows for timeloops (kunimi)
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
19 Jul 2025
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The problem, naturally, was Neil Josten.
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Or, Neil always gets the cherry fruit pop, Andrew is enjoying himself, and Aaron is a hopeless hypocrite.
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24 Jun 2026
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Books & Crannies by neiljokesten (vykio) for KittKatAttack
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
21 May 2025
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“Are you hungry?” Neil thinks about it and seesaws his hand midair, meaning so-so. “I’ll get you something to eat. Don’t follow me. Can you wait a while?”
Neil shrugs and nods. Aaron follows the movement of his shoulder and trails his eyes to Neil’s collarbone, where the zip-up he’s wearing reveals the beginning of a design on a bright yellow shirt. The zip-up has twin white stripes on each side of the zipper that match the ones running down its sleeves. It sits loosely on Neil, though not uncomfortably, but it’s obviously not his, and very possibly Kevin’s, and there’s something about that that Aaron finds irritating.
Neil vigorously gestures at the box in front of him, meaning he’s occupied, then flaps his hand towards Aaron, meaning go away. Aaron rolls his eyes and goes.
“Don’t be too long,” Neil calls after him. “You know I get bored without you.”
Aaron does take too long, so Neil can't be held responsible for what happens next, can he?
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24 Jun 2026
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Every Sinner Has A Future by OfficialStarsandGutters for foxyexy
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
05 Sep 2021
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Canon divergent Neil x Aaron.
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Neil Josten. A shock of red hair and ocean blue eyes. Pretty faced, but nothing special.
Except he makes a throwaway comment about Andrew being off his meds and it’s like everyone in the room forgets to breathe. Even Aaron, his body still and tense with surprise that he can tell them apart.
Without even having met Aaron, he knew Andrew wasn’t him.
That shouldn’t mean anything.
Aaron rubs his sweaty palms on his skinny jeans and tells himself it doesn’t, it doesn’t, it doesn’t.
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24 Jun 2026
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Old habits sometimes don't die. by Ashbitesthesharks
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
06 Jul 2026
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Uh hi so I just randomly decided to make Aaron sad as fuck in this and also friends with neil because it's Neil's second year when this is set and I do want to believe theyr friends by then :]
I apologise if any characters are ooc in this fic I'll try getting better at making them more in character if I make more fics after this one.
Aaron also has selective mutism. :3
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23 Jun 2026
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paper hearts (we're burning matches) by HandleWithCare (WordsOfASarcast)
Fandoms: Percy Jackson and the Olympians & Related Fandoms - All Media Types
13 Jul 2024
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Where Will constantly complains about the medical inaccuracies in Nico’s books but has never bothered to look at the ‘About the Author’ page to know exactly who he’s complaining to.
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- Part 2 of one shots <3
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22 Jun 2026
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Because I'm Big, Blonde And Beautiful (Face The Fact, The Simply Irrefutable) by queencontrarian (negativefouriq)
Fandoms: Percy Jackson and the Olympians - Rick Riordan, Percy Jackson and the Olympians & Related Fandoms - All Media Types, The Heroes of Olympus - Rick Riordan
11 Feb 2024
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It takes him a second to find the head hole in the dark — because the godsdamn sun is not up yet — but after a minute of fumbling he manages.
He realizes, the second he tugs it over his chest, that something is wrong.
“What the —”
Now, Will orders his shirts in bulk. He has to. He’s the only one wearing them, after all, and the sheer amount of times per day that he is covered in bodily fluids is a number he chooses, for sake of his sanity, not to count. He is well used to the process of ordering his shirts along with other linen and infirmary supplies. Every fortnight, without fail, he orders a set of orange Head Medic t-shirts one size too big, because it gives him a little breathing room without being too baggy.
When he pulls on this shirt, however, it practically clings to his skin. He can practically feel the fabric groaning as it stretches over his broad shoulders.
And, worst of all — the hem barely brushes the edge of his ribcage.
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OR: Will's shirts get shrunk in the wash. He has no other shirts to wear. Coincidentally, the infirmary has a very busy day, even if no one seems to be injured.Bookmarked by ExistingandScared
22 Jun 2026
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this tree it will die without leaves by rabbit_soup
Fandoms: Percy Jackson and the Olympians - Rick Riordan, Percy Jackson and the Olympians & Related Fandoms - All Media Types, The Heroes of Olympus - Rick Riordan, The Trials of Apollo - Rick Riordan
01 Nov 2022
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“Hey!” Will grinned back. It made his head spin, a budding migraine stabbing behind his eyes. “You hurt?”
“A little!” Nico said, wiping his bloody nose with his wrist. “You?”
Will seesawed his hand. “What’s got you all smiley? Does the maulin’ of our campers make you feel good? You givin’ in to the darkside?”
Nico paused for a moment, gears visibly turning in his head. “Will, I swear, if that’s another one of those Star Wars references, I’ll hurt you.”
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- Part 3 of healing takes two
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21 Jun 2026
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Hello Ocean, My Old Friend by CaffeinatedFlumadiddle
Fandoms: Percy Jackson and the Olympians & Related Fandoms - All Media Types, Percy Jackson and the Olympians - Rick Riordan
23 Jul 2019
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Poseidon keeps getting offerings from Percy’s baby sister. He doesn’t quite know how to feel about this small child vying for his attention…At the very least he would keep Zeus from blowing up whenever her prayers interrupted council meetings.
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Rick Riordan gave us Estelle Blofis and I am thrilled. She's going to get Poseidon to attend family events even if every god on Olympus kills her.
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21 Jun 2026
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“Oh shit,” he wailed, rolling his head back, the heels of his hands pressed to his temples. “Shit. This is it, Richard.”
“Shut up.”
“It’s over. We’ve had it. We’re going to jail.”
“Shut up.” I said again. His panic, oddly, had sobered me. “We’ve just got to figure out what to do.”
“Look,” said Francis. “Let’s just go. If we leave now we can be in Montreal by dark. Nobody will ever find us.”
“You’re not making any sense.”
“We’ll stay in Montreal a couple of days. Sell the car. Then take the bus to, I don’t know, Saskatchewan or something. We’ll go to the weirdest place we can find.”
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03 Jun 2026
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When I said I slept with him, I didn't mean it that way.
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01 Jun 2026