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    “Game is over,” he says. “You won. I lost. I was annoying. Normal.”

    “That’s not—” Shane starts, then stops, because he actually doesn't know how to finish that thought without sounding like an idiot. His jaw works, teeth grinding together.

    That's not what I meant. That's not the point. You said I was boring and you were right and I need you to say it again so I know where I stand, so I know what you think of me, so I can stop waiting for the other shoe to drop.

    He settles for: “You were kind of an asshole.”

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    03 Jul 2026

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    Shane is stooped over to strap on his shin guards when his phone buzzes once in Hayden’s hand.

    He doesn’t mean to tap the notification.

    And oh god, does he wish he could un-tap the fucking notification.

    Because why the fuck has Lily, Shane’s mysterious Boston hook-up of several years (no matter how fervently he denies it), sent him a picture of a fucking sonogram.

    Black and white, blurry, and undeniably baby-shaped.

    Ilya makes a joke, Hayden breaks Shane’s phone, and a comedy of errors ensues.

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    03 Jul 2026

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    a collection of "fuck the montreal voyageurs" fics with a side of shane hollander being shane motherfucking hollander

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    03 Jul 2026

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    Of course Ilya had known that Shane would come back but it was gratifying, still, the text from Jane, Can we meet up when you’re here tomorrow, I don’t care where. I really need to see you. The intimation, probably accidental, that Shane was so very desperate he was open to the idea of Ilya fucking him in the street. Ilya typed and deleted many potential replies, which was not characteristic of him.

     

    (Or: Shane gets blackmailed. Ilya handles it.)

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    01 Jul 2026

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    He wanted to bury his face in the juncture between his neck and shoulder, to breathe in the smell of him, to touch his skin and give him everything that he could. He wanted to give to him until there was nothing left, until Shane had disappeared into him forever.

    “Look at me,” Ilya’s voice was quiet, but Shane obeyed immediately, his eyes fuzzy at the corners, “How are you feeling?”

    Shane intended to lie. There was no reason to complicate things with hard truths that not even he understood. Instead, his lip wobbled, and he found that he couldn’t say anything at all.

    “Ah,” Ilya made a noise that sounded nearly as devastated as Shane felt, and put a hand on the back of his neck, pulling him forward. Shane went easily, his forehead pressing into Ilya’s shoulder, and breathing deeply through his nose, trying not to cry.

    Or, Shane drops after leaving Ilya's house.

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