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    Shane rolls his eyes and spits onto the ice. “Gonna play a clean game, Rozanov?”

    Ilya laughs. “Unless you give me reason not to, Hollander.”

    “That’s pretty weak.”

    “Just like your backhand.”

    “Oh fuck off.”

    Ilya shakes his head, tutting. “Not good enough, Hollander, sorry. Want to try again?”

    Shane huffs. “Don’t have time, gonna be busy kicking your ass.”

    Ilya glances at the warm up timer, realizing belatedly that they actually only have a few more minutes. “Alright, fine. I will be expecting better during the game!”

    “Expect whatever you want, Rozanov.” Shane pauses. “Except for winning. You’re not getting that.”

    “Ooh, good one! Keep ‘em coming!”

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    In which Shane and Ilya are mic'd up during a Voyagers v Centaurs game. They get into a chirp-off. That's is.

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    03 Jul 2026

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    “You’ll text when you land, right?” Shane asks as he takes an exit ramp labeled Airport Departures.

    “Yes. Promise.”

    “And you’ll call tonight?” Shane’s throat works over the words, like he still doesn’t trust this new thing between them. Ilya thinks he understands. He also doesn’t know how to trust this love. How can he when it has been trapped in his own heart so long. Neither of them know what the next year will bring. There is so much time before Ilya can have his agent, or his future agent, he will need a new one with no connections to Russia, reach out to Ottawa and hope that they’ll be interested in a future Hall of Fame center. The one thing Ilya is certain of is that he will do everything in his power to make their plan work. He spent his entire adult life lusting after, and then pining for Shane with his whole heart.

    “I will call.” Ilya reaches for the hand Shane has left on the gearshift and threads his fingers through his. He wants to say so much, but he has always been better with touch than words, especially when the only shared language was English. “We will talk every day.”

    Or, There is a year before Ilya can sign with Ottawa, Shane counts down the days until their forever.

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    28 Jun 2026

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    Yuna and Ilya might not be close yet, but she certainly isn’t going to abandon him in some random Ottawa hotel room when he’s sick. And Ilya's powerless against these Hollanders — their earnest kindness, and their insistence on caring about him as though he deserves it.

    Or: Yuna + Ilya's mortifying ordeal of being known.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    "No m'not," Shane said, somehow pressing his face even more into Ilya's body. "All I ever did was play hockey. Now, I don't know what I'm gonna do. I hope we have a baby soon."

    The car went quiet at that. When Shane looked up, Ilya was looking out the window, jaw set.

    "S' something wrong?" Shane asked. He ran his fingertips along the warm skin of Ilya's forearm.

    Ilya turned back to face him, expression softened. Whatever pensiveness had taken hold of him was gone.

    "No. Everything is perfect."

    After sixteen seasons of professional hockey, Shane Hollander retires from the NHL in the interest of starting a family with his loving husband. It's maybe a little earlier than he would've liked, but with his thirty-five year old knees beginning to protest, it makes sense.

    He's happy. He and Ilya have been working towards this for nearly a decade.

    He's also terrified, wondering if this is the biggest mistake of his life, and thinking that maybe he should take it all back. But mostly, he's happy.

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    20 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander is a man who thrives on structure, routine, the solid ground of a ten-year plan. Ilya likes that about him, likes the embracing squeeze of having a life organized in tandem with Shane.

    No one would call Ilya a man who thrives on structure. But it’s there, if not in his DNA then in the patterns of his brain. A call-and-response of: they do this, I do that.

    When Ilya’s life is flayed open for the world to dissect, how will they push-and-pull their way back towards what was once a well-organized life?


    “I thought we could go through the schedules and figure out what days we’ll be in the same cities this season, or when either of us have a couple of days off in a row. Maybe make a shared calendar, so we c—”

    “A sex calendar? Your parents are arriving in thirty minutes, and you are proposing making a sex calendar?” Oh, this was delicious. He’d be able to eat out on this for years, if Shane was willing to give him that long.

    “It’s not a sex calendar! It’s just … when we might be able to see each other,” he finished, already sounding defeated.

    “And what are you planning on doing when we are seeing each other? Not fucking?”

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    13 Jun 2026

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    Sveta was worried.
    It had been a week since Ilya had last texted, and now he’d left her on read for two days.
    And so she stood in front of the giant glass shoebox he lived in twenty minutes outside of Boston. Willing herself to walk inside.

    Or, a depressive episode after the 2014 Olympics.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    They sat in silence for a few seconds and watched the surf rolling in and out, in and out. Shane eased one knee up and rested his arm across it, watching Ilya out of the corner of his eye with infinite patience.

    “You wanna talk about it?” he asked, voice soft enough that the wind almost stole it.

    He did want to talk. His chest was full of words. Too full. But the idea of opening all that up? Of watching Shane recoil, or worse, watching him care? It was unbearable. The thought of being comforted by Shane, of feeling that warmth and knowing he couldn’t keep it, nearly crushed him.

    Ilya kept his eyes on the water and his jaw tight.

    Shane reached out slowly and carefully and let the tip of one finger trace the outside of Ilya’s forearm. Just a whisper of contact. A question, not a demand.

    Ilya looked at him. Shane gave a small tilt of his hand, beckoning him closer.

    “Come here.”

    ****

    A deviation from the All-Star weekend in Tampa:

    Instead of finding Shane on the bench, it’s Ilya alone with his ghosts and falling apart in ways he never lets anyone see.

    Until Shane sits beside him.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    As he approaches, David hears the faint sound of a slider door being opened.

    In hindsight, he definitely wishes he would’ve just called out to Shane once he heard that noise.

    But he didn’t. Instead he just continued on through the kitchen, turning the corner to see—

    Shane, on the deck, standing in front of the open glass door. And definitely not alone.

    Or: Chapter 26 of Heated Rivalry from David Hollander's POV
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    Or: It wasn't really about the dishwasher tablets

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    31 May 2026

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    Shane thinks this is probably the first - and last - time in his life that he’s ever been excited about grocery shopping. But it’s their first time doing it together, as a couple, out in public where other people can see them. Where, finally, they don’t have to pretend to be something they’re not.

    It’s such a small thing - insignificant to most people, probably - but it’s a luxury Shane never thought he would be allowed to have.

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    17 May 2026

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    Bood
    what have you given her before?

    Ilya
    A fucking, mostly

    Bood
    CHEAP
    CHEAP GIFT GIVER

    Ilya enlists Bood & the Ottawa WAGs to help brainstorm ideas for his first proper Valentine’s Day with ‘Jane’.

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    12 May 2026

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    “I mean, you— you say I’m perfect. That it’s, that everything we do together is… is perfect.”

    Yes, perfect,” Ilya says adamantly.

    “Okay. But. I mean. I like feedback, you know. If there are things you haven’t said because you don’t want to hurt my feelings, you could say. If there’s any judgement of my technique, like, that you’ve been doing silently in your head.”

    “I never judge you silently,” Ilya says. He pulls back a bit, twisting his neck so he can look Shane in the eye, frowning. “I judge you loudly. Is no fun if I don’t see your reaction.”

    “Ha, ha.”

    “Shane,” Ilya says. “Is this real worry you are having? I must know. You think I have… criticism of you, of sex with you? You think it is not perfect for me?”

    ---

    Shane and Ilya navigate their sexual relationship, now that they're finally a couple.

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    07 May 2026

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    Ilya is frozen for a second, eyes flicking down to the pillow. David is offering. And his body still feels so heavy to hold up. He moves slowly, like he’s afraid something is going to jump out at him (which is kind of embarrassing), until he comes to rest on his side, his head against the soft pillow.

    Without looking away from his book, David reaches over to pull Ilya’s blanket - which had traveled with him - up to rest just under his chin. He leaves his arm over Ilya, resting on his back. Holding him.

    Ilya sniffles.

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    30 Apr 2026

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    “We’ve made a trade,” Coach announces. “For Shane Hollander.”

    It’s like the ground drops out from beneath Ilya, and his heart falls from his chest. It tumbles past rock bottom, down to the cavern that shattered open inside of him on that night five years ago. The night when Ilya walked away from Hollander for the last time.

    He can’t breathe.

    (Or: Shane doesn’t get hurt, they break up, and they don’t talk for five long years. Until Shane is traded to Ottawa.)

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    28 Apr 2026

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    Shane doesn’t like to ask for what he needs, but when Ilya is around, he doesn’t have to.

    or five times Ilya fixes it without making Shane feel bad, and one time he doesn’t.

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    27 Apr 2026

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    “Did you… Did you get a whole roll of wrapping paper for it?”

    “Yes. And ribbon.”

    “You’re cute.”

    “Shut up.”

    // shane’s birthday is next week. ilya has gifts for him.

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    26 Apr 2026

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    Shane
    It’s kind of annoying how good you are at making me feel better when I get like this. 

    Ilya
    I can’t help it, I am good at so many things 

    Ilya
    Kissing you, fucking you

    Ilya
    List goes on 

    Shane
    Is getting on my nerves on that list? 

    Ilya 
    Yes, at the top ❤️

    Or: Shane and Ilya's first year as a couple as told through some of their texts.

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    26 Apr 2026

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    Yuna
    Happy birthday, Ilya!!!! We’re so happy to have you in our family. We love you! 

    David
    Love you, Ilya! We have some gifts for next time we see you.

    Shane
    28 years ago the best and most annoying person I’ve ever met was born ❤️

    Ilya
    Thank you everyone! Except for Shane who is very mean to me. 

    Shane
    I’m literally in the McDonald’s drive-thru buying your disgusting birthday breakfast right now. 

    Or: Hollanov’s July 2017-July 2021 relationship timeline as told through texts on Yuna Hollander’s phone.

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    26 Apr 2026

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    The queer NHL players (begrudgingly) unite via group chats in the face of social media scandals.

    These stories take place on a (slightly loose) chronological timeline and make the most sense when read in order. However, they're all independent stories/scandals and can be read as standalones.

    All stories take place post TLG and include spoilers for the books.

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    25 Apr 2026

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    After a moment, Hayden pulls back. Then he hands her the phone—Shane’s phone.

    “I grabbed this when I was getting his stuff and I saw, well.”

    He looks away from Yuna, briefly glances at David, then looks away from him too. There’s an oddly guilty look on his face that has Yuna suspicious at once.

    “Um, has Shane told you guys about Lily?”

    --

    AKA, Yuna and David find out about Lily, Shane’s... girlfriend?, while he's in the hospital. It's a while before they find out about Ilya.

    Featuring:
    - high Shane
    - Ilya angst
    - theories about who Lily could be
    - Yuna & "Lily" texting
    - identity shenanigans

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    23 Apr 2026

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    “It is the worst day of my life,” Ilya declares, throwing himself dramatically onto one of the kitchen stools. “I went to go get lunch at Russian place I like, the one with lamb pelmeni? They had sign on the door. They are closing. Forever.”

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    Or: Ilya’s favorite Russian restaurant in Ottawa is going out of business. There is only one thing Shane “Mr. Real Estate” Hollander can do.

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    22 Apr 2026

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