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    He doesn’t try it on. Not yet, anyways. Ilya opens the drawer and stares at the dress once a day–sometimes twice, sometimes three times–petting along the soft fabric and wondering how it would slip down his body. Would it contour to his chest, all fat and muscle? Would it fall just mid-thigh, or would the length of his torso force the hem upwards? Would he put it on and look in the mirror and recognize himself? Would he take it off the same man? Would he–

    Femininity, Ilya learns, does not have to come at the expense of his dominance.

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    04 Jul 2026

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    After Shane Hollander's sudden trade to the Ottawa Centaurs three years into their careers, Ilya Rozanov can't help his curiosity, or his impulse.

    With no one else truly on his level, and desperate to know what happened to his greatest rival, Ilya joins the Centaurs only to find that something is truly wrong with Shane Hollander.

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    Traded mid-season, Shane Hollander is fighting to keep it together. His secret was discovered and nearly made public, but that didn't stop the backlash. The backlash the never ended, a constant reminder of why he kept the secret.

    Then, Ilya Rozanov barges into his life, into his new safe space, and Rozanov had come to remind Shane who the fuck he is and what he deserves.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    As a straight man, Ilya Rozanov has never had a gay roommate before, but it’s going pretty well. Shane Hollander is kind, silly, and an even bigger hockey nut than Ilya.

    So when Shane starts bringing men over, and Ilya begins to want to bash their fucking heads in, Ilya comes to a startling conclusion: He must be homophobic.

    (He’s jealous.)

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    29 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 42

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    Shane misses the first two days of Rose and Svetlana’s wedding week and arrives at the campsite close to midnight, already feeling guilty and tired from the drive. All he wants to do is change out of his clothes, and sprawl onto his bed of his assigned cabin.

    Instead, he walks into cabin 1410 and finds a Russian man in his bed.

    Or, according to Ilya, Shane is the one in his cabin.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    Shane thought that by the time he was thirty, he’d be married and on the waitlist to adopt a baby. He spent his twenties in one serious longterm relationship after another, after all.

    Instead he is now twenty-nine, single for over a year and looking for a nice, stable boyfriend: preferably college educated and in the same place in life as he is.

    The only problem is that the bartender at the restaurant Shane takes his dates to is the hottest man Shane has ever seen in his life.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    Ilya knows firsthand that the world isn’t comfortable. It’s loud, bright, demanding, a harsh place in direct opposition to everything he’s recently learned about autism.

    Is it so wrong that he wants Shane to feel safe here? To carve out a space where, even if only for a few hours, he doesn’t have to grin and bear anything? He can just be?

    Or: Ilya Rozanov has a lot of good ideas. Telling his fuck buddy that he should consider getting an autism diagnosis isn’t one of them.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    “You could date me,” Rozanov says nonchalantly.

    Wait. What?

    Shane is sure he must’ve misheard. He stares at the other boy in disbelief, his mouth hanging slightly open.

    “What?” he asks aloud, because surely Rozanov must’ve hit his head or something.

    But the blond man just shrugs casually. “You need hot fake boyfriend. I am available.”

    or, the fake dating hollanov fic, in which Shane desperately wants his ex to think that he's no longer hung up on him and his rival Ilya Rozanov is more than happy to help.

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    23 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander doesn't understand why everyone thinks he and Ilya Rozanov hate each other. He's pretty sure that in all the years they've been playing in the league together, they've never even talked before.

    Well, he's kind of sure. He thinks he would remember. He would remember something about Rozanov, if it was really important.

    Right?

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    23 Jun 2026

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    Urianger recalls the day of Fourchenault and Ameliance's wedding as if it were yesterday. In reality, it has been nearly two decades - but the memory aches no less now than it did when he was thirteen. But when the rift of Fourchenault's marriage widens, he finds himself nostalgic for his more adventurous days... and Urianger, now nearly thirty summers, is exactly his type.

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    19 Jun 2026

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    “Y’know,” Carvallain says, the rumble in his voice sending a shiver down Artoirel's spine. “You could always get him back by spending the night with a pirate of your own. Llymlaen knows I've been dying to put Sicard in his place since he started carting your brother around like a prized chocobo.”

    “I've no intention of being anyone's trophy.”

    “Sure you don't. But doesn't a part of you want to prove that you're the better prize in your brother’s own scene? Not many can claim to have had the opportunity to warm my bed.”

    Maybe the Artoirel of a few years ago might've taken that bait, but he's more gracious now. More self-assured in his capabilities. He doesn't need to shove Emmanellain down to feel like he's still on top.

    or, artoirel has no idea what is happening with him and carvallain, but he's having fun

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    17 Jun 2026

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    Shane leaves that Vegas penthouse suite feeling wretched, and like an idiot, and like he never wants to see Ilya Rozanov again.

    Except, well. Then there are zombies.

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    04 Jun 2026

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     “I need your help.” 

    Ilya peers up again and raises an eyebrow. He pauses the video he was watching. “With?” 

    Shane fidgets. “I, uh… I can’t– I mean, I can but I’m not very good– Fuck, listen, just– Ineedyoutohelpmewithsex.” 

    A pause. A long pause. Ilya blinks a couple of times, mouth twitching at the corners. Then,

    “You need me to teach you how to fuck your girl, Hollander?”

    Shane needs help satisfying his girlfriend, Jessica. He turns to his roommate, Ilya, for help.

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    02 Jun 2026

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    “The thing is,” Ilya says, conversationally, as if he doesn't have fucking Shane Hollander grinding into his touch, as if he doesn't have a hand on his—Luca's sure of it—perfect fucking cock, “you have not been subtle, Haasy.”

    It takes Luca a moment to understand just what the hell Ilya's talking about, before he moans, low in his throat, humiliation sweeping across his body. It's not that he thought he had been actually subtle, but he hadn't expected this, of all places, to be where they confronted him. Not with Ilya's hand worming its way into Shane's pants, the soft blue of his briefs a flash color amongst the pale glow of his skin and the dark drape of his clothes.

    OR: The Cens have won the Stanley Cup. Luca's been voted Hollanov's MVP.

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    23 May 2026

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    22 May 2026

  15. Public Bookmark 78

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    they're thirst-trapping each other. sometimes they don't even mean to.

    these don't follow a rigid timeline and are pretty much standalones, though i will try to list them in chronological order. all of these are in the general theme of shane and ilya being forced to see each other everywhere they go even though they only get to actually see each other a handful of times a year. fake idgafers i literally saw you yearning over each other's ad campaigns.

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    20 May 2026

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    “Why do I taste blood in your mouth, solnyshko?”

    “I told you, my ex said it’s annoying when I’m too loud during sex. I guess it’s a habit. I bite my tongue sometimes so you won’t have to hear me that much.”

    “And I told you, I need you to give me the name of this ex so I can kill him with my bare hands. Is very serious matter.”

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    20 May 2026

  17. Public Bookmark 70

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    during rookie season (the summer before), Hollander and Rozanov enter into a marriage of convenience.

    contains almost zero actual hockey content & what's here is not accurate.

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    20 May 2026

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    04 May 2026

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    04 May 2026

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    Daily posts on the Ottawa Centaurs social media.

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    28 Apr 2026

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